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There's a song in my heart

When the new day begins

One more chance I've been given

To do a whole lot of livin

For my Lord

For my Lord

No room for mistakes

Got to get it right as I go

I know I'm not in this alone

He's guiding me from His Throne

He's my Lord

He's my Lord

So I will shout His name in wonder

Praise Him high on the mountains

Tell the whole world

How much He's done for me

Those who have ears .. will hear me

Those who have Faith .. will see

We all can be with Him in Heaven

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Gerti M. Blackwell

June 4, 2012

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Sad Memory

Sometimes it is nice to be alone with your thoughts .... and sometimes it isn't.  Funny how watching a t.v. show can trigger a memory from your own past, or just remind you of a better time in your life. .. That happened to me this evening.  It was a Walton's Mountain Marathon on t.v. today.  I haven't been able to watch that show since my husband passed.  I'm not sure how come I did this evening, but I just had the t.v. on and was working on the computer.  Some of the shows were about Grandmaw Walton.. the actress had a stroke in real life, and she came back to the show afterwards.  Everyone was treating her like an invalid and she just wanted to feel needed.. Something reminded me of my own mother, who passed away in 2008, and the tears just came .. and came .. and came.  It happens like that sometimes.. when least expected, the tears just come.  I miss you so much, Mama! .. You was such a wonderful mother and person.  I will always miss you until I see you again in Heaven..  Your middle, most troublesome child, loves you and always will! ..

MEMORIAL DAY TRIBUTE

Today is Memorial Day .. a day to honor all those brave men and women, who have served, and are serving, our country so that we can all walk around freely.  My Dad served in WWII at the age of 17.. He saw things that most of us can only imagine, and those images followed him back home and throughout his life.. Only those who have experienced it, or have loved ones who have experienced it, can know what they have been through.  I salute each and every man and woman in the United States Military and say Thank You, from the bottom of my heart, for your dedication and sacrifices you have made.  There is no way to repay you, but my thoughts and prayers are with you all. . May God rain down His blessings and protection on all who serve their countries, for the freedoms that we all should never have to give our blood to secure.  Thank you will never be enough.. GOD BLESS YOU ALL!

MY PRAYER FOR ALL THOSE HURTING

Dear Heavenly Father .. Master of us all,
First I would like to thank You for each breath I take, today and all my gifted days, Lord!  I give You ALL the honor and glory for all good things that come from me.  I praise You in the morning .. I praise You in the afternoon .. I praise You in the evening .. and all times in between, Lord Jesus!  


There are so many folks in this world that are hurting, right now, Lord!  You know each one by name.  I lift them all up to You, Lord, to take away their pain and replace it with joy, and hope for a bright and sunny future.  There are those who doubt that You are the One True God, and they try to convince others who are not yet strong in their belief and faith in You, to doubt, as they do.  I ask you sweet Jesus, to take all doubts and cast them into the sea of oblivion, never to enter their minds or hearts again.   Give them peace in knowing that one day they will be with you for the rest of time, and place on all hearts to stay focused on the One who answers all prayers, wipes away tears, takes away sorrows, and loves like they have never been loved before.


One person cannot take care of the world, but if one person can bring joy, comfort, smiles and shelter to one of your children, then Your work is being fulfilled and Your Word is being obeyed.  My love for You is mighty in my heart .. but when I think of how much more You love me, Lord, it brings me to my knees.   Tears flow and I cannot raise my head, thinking of being in your holy presence.  I lift my hands in praise and worship to You, Lord God, and pray that you will have mercy on my soul, for sins committed in the flesh.  I know I am forgiven by Your blood, but help me to be more like You, Jesus.    This I pray in your most holy name.   AMEN!

MY PRAYER FOR ALL THOSE WHO ARE STRUGGLING

Dear Lord in Heaven .. Holy Father of Mercy and Light
My prayer tonight is for all those in this world who are struggling.. I know there are people all over this world that are going through physical, mental, financial, .. some sort of struggle in their lives, that leave them scared, weary, hurting in body and soul, and pacing the floors all night, worrying about how they are going to provide for their families; where their next meal will come from; and even if they will have shelter from the storms brewing in their lives. .. Lord, I pray to you right now, to take their worries from them.  Give them hope, peace, and comfort through these hard times that they are going through right now.  Put on their hearts that it is You, Lord, who will provide them with everything they need.  When the sky becomes the darkest is right before the dawn of a new day.  If we can only learn to trust you, Lord, and believe with all our hearts, that you will show us the way, and to be patient and wait on You, Lord Jesus!  In particular, Lord, there is someone I know right now that has a very heavy load weighing down on him.. He is a good man; as You know his heart, Lord, and he tries so hard to take care of his family and supply all of their needs.  I ask you, Lord, to touch his heart tonight, and give his mind the peace in knowing that You are carrying him through his trials right now, as You always have, Lord.  I know in my heart that he is about to have the answer to his prayer that he has been waiting for, for too long, now, Lord.  I trust Your Word, that you will supply all of our needs.. if we will only believe.  You have always been there for me and I do believe every Word You have ever spoken .. even those I have never heard You speak.  Ohhhhh, Jesus .. thank You so much for answering my prayers, and the prayers of others.. You are truly an awesome God, and I give You all the glory tonight, Lord!  I am asking this in your most precious and Holy Name..   AMEN!

EXPLANATION

Let me explain the description of this blog.. I am not trying to hurry along my exit from this world.  I don't have a bad life, compared to a lot of people, I suppose.  I am not on drugs, have no criminal record, hopefully do not have a lot of enemies, have always worked and can take care of myself by myself, have a wonderful family and extended family, and have had basically pretty good health.  The only thing missing that would make my life complete, would be if I looked up from this computer right now, and saw my late husband, David, standing there.  He has been home with the Lord nigh onto four years now.  My heart still aches and yearns for him like it was yesterday.  He was a wonderful man, father, and husband to me.  He left behind a wonderful family that I would be lost if they were not in my life.  Two wonderful sons, Michael and Jody,  and six amazing grandchildren .. Casey, Caitlyn, Colby, Colton, Chase and Chassidy.  I never was blessed with children of my own, and David gave me a wonderful gift when we married... Their mother, Patricia,  is one of my best friends, and I love her dearly, too.  Then there is Judy, his sister . more like a sister to me than a friend.  

I have a family back in Maine.  That is where I was born and raised before moving to Texas in 1991. My Dad passed in July of 2007.  David passed in August, 2008 .. Mom passed in December, 2008, and my sister, Jeanette's husband, Orland, passed in January, 2009.  It was very hard times back then.  I miss them all so much!!!!  But life keeps moving . like the waves that wash up on shore and then are swept back out to sea, until they sweep the shore again.    My sister, Jeanette; brother, Jody; and Jeanette's two sons, John and Mike, are still there.. John and JoAnn have two beautiful girls, Chelsey and Marissa.  Chelsey just finished her Junior year of College and Marissa graduates from High School this June.  They are wonderful, sweet, and awesome girls and I've missed all of their growing up years, with only a few visits back home in 21 years.. I'm so sad about that. .. Michael and Jennifer have two sweet boys, Michael and Joshua, and a sweet daughter, Chloe.. They are the youngest, and I'm missing out on their lives too. .. We never know what our future holds and it can be happy and sad, at the same time.  At least, that is the story of my life.

As the years are etched in each line on my face, I feel the time getting closer to finally seeing all of my loved ones again.  But most importantly, I will see my Jesus.  I can feel His love flowing over and through every part of my being.  I will finally have answers to all the questions that I never should have asked, but wasn't afraid to, because of His great mercy and love.  Everything that I have ever been through in my life, I have felt Him right there with me.  He didn't prevent bad things from happening, or sad times, but He never once let me go through any of them alone.  I don't deserve His love or His mercy, or His forgiveness.  But that is what He has done for me .. with His blood He made me clean.  I am so unworthy .. so unworthy!!!!!